:((

All my bags are packed I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin' it's early morn
The taxi's waitin' he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Close your eyes I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I hate to go

Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

I'm leaving, though not on a jet plane.
but I really hate to go :(
Feel like crying again :'(

PENNIES FOR THOUGHTS

Life has been pretty well and fine for me.
Am coping well with school.
Things on my schedule are gradually falling into place;
So I don't have to worry about coping at all! :)
wellwells. Been thinking for quite abit.

PENNIES FOR MY THOUGHTS!

1. First to start off; I've very CHI2 DUN4(slow reacting) muscles.
I was having so much fun and joy in carrying my boyfriend's little nephew.
it was only after many hours of carrying then putting him down.
then the pain strikes me gradually.
my arms cramped for the WHOLE night.
mans. Must try my best to remember not to overindulge in my enjoyment with kids from now on.

2. We have to make many choices and decisions in life.
sometimes, when it comes to things I really dislike.
and when it comes to a point that I feel I've been tolerating for too long,
or when disappointments get too great,
I usually give people only two options.
"Take it or Leave it"
it's just as simple as that.
some things can never coincide with me in the same era, or however you phrase it.

3. It takes two hands to clap.
and many claps to get an applause.
sometimes, I can get really demanding, I know.
but since dunno when, I've always strongly believed that if you want something badly enough,
you will be able to clear all obstacles and make all sacrifices to get it.
I used to be someone who will turn to popping panadols into my mouth whenever I feel a slight headache/gastric pain.
and I grew to be really dependent on those for pain relief whenever migraine hits me in the past.
this sort of dependency should be considered an addiction of some sort bahs.
and I've managed to overcome it perfectly.
it wasn't easy.
Imagine the sort of pain you get from migraine, and having to force yourself not to pop those pills into your mouth.
yes, temptations are there.
They are, always there and everywhere;
Quiting an addiction of any sort, isn't easy; never easy at all.
but with the considerable amount of effort one puts in,
one should think about how his/her effort will go back to square one, before giving in to temptations.
In order to quit any form of addiction, the very first step is to stop finding excuses for yourself to do it again.
Think for yourself, and for the people who care enough to want to see you quit.

4. CNY is just round the corner.
what sort of meaning does CNY holds for you?
since young, I always think it as a festive for reunion.
'Cause my dad's side of relatives all live so faraway from us.
but as years go by, and people grow older and have their own life.
I realised that lesser of my cousins do actually return for the reunion.
and even if they do, there isn't much interaction anymore.
HOW SAD CAN! :(
somehow, CNY has begun to lose its appeal to the younger generations, except perhaps, for the fact that they are able to get hongbaos.

okayy. I've babbled enough nonsense lers.
Life goes on, even when something is lost in its own transit and the earth won't stop spinning for you.
Stay strong and move on.
You'll always see the light at the end of tunnel :))

:))))

it's thursday already.
I know I haven't been blogging for a week lers.
Been really busy with my projects.
as well as spending my limited free time with boyfriend who has limited time for me too.
Tuition is going to resume for me.
Am kind of looking forward to it.
'Cause I really need the income.
:((
RAWR!!
new school term has been really great with my unifriends.
not quite with the new ones though.
sighh.

MAB class later.
yay! I'm going to be alone!
sometimes, I rather be alone than be around people who so like comparing results O.o!
rawrr! show-off! >.<

Finally watched FOUR CHRISTMASES!!:))

SCHOOL WAS GREAT today.
but alittle exhausting still.
:))
I love meals with people, mingling around and talking to them about things.
oh ya. today I was making fun of someone and my chinese screwed up!!
SO EMBARRASSING!! :(
must brush up on my chinese lers :)

After school, I came home to finish my chores.
Then I went to find JER.
Finally watched FOUR CHRISTMASES!!
it's super NICE!! :))
I SO SO SO LOVE IT.

I kind of dread tml.
but I know I shouldn't be feeling this way.
I hope my new classmates are nice people.
and they must be friendly!!
haha.
okay. Must get to sleep soon.
it's a LONG DAY tml.
limjiaxin JIAYOU!! :)

DAY TWO OF SCHOOL.

it's only DAY TWO of school.
okay. it just felt as though I've started school for ages.
Nahs. I ain't sick of it yet.
Will try my best not to be.
It's just the morning lessons that are totally killing me.
THE MORNING CROWDS, THE MORNING BLUES >.<
and for the whole of the rest of this week, I have morning lessons at 8.30am!!
rawrrrrrr! why the torture!! :(
okay. end of whinings.
:DDD

Was doing my daily bible reading; came across this verse.
Which is really important and relevant to me.
Matthew 6:34 - "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

Feeling sleepy already.
*yawns* it's only TEN o'clock for goodness sake! :'(

LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT :))

SCHOOL WAS TOTALLY FABULOUS TODAY!
it was LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT for me.
Don't get me wrong.
I didn't fall in love with any guy, nor is it my lecturer.
I FELL IN LOVE WITH MY NEW SUBJECT!
"HISTORY OF MANAGEMENT THOUGHT"! *my new love*
*prays hard that the passion will LAST* :DD

must get more sleep.
I think I've been seriously lacking in SLEEP!
*baa baa black SLEEP*
:P

EMO POST.

I can't tell you how much I'm looking forward to SCHOOL-reopening.

Seriously, staying at home too much, makes me lose my sanity.
so, just let me have an outlet to release some of those unhealthy feelings;
I hate to keep them inside.
sometimes some person who lives in the same house as I do,
says the most demoralising, most insulting, most humiliating things to you.
sometimes, some person makes you feel so unwelcomed that it seems like things will be oh so merry if you move out.
but at the same time, some person restricts you so much like a caged animal with NO freedom at all.
sometimes, you feel like screaming back at some person just so to tell some person that he might not be all that RIGHT after all.
sometimes, you would wonder if that some person ever reflects on himself.
I really wonder, you know.

but afterall, I do not need to get angry over such a person.
I do not need to prove myself to anyone.
I do not need.
one day, I'll get my freedom.

Know the theory about kite-flying?
I like thinking of relationships using the theory of kite-flying.
Kite-flying is a skill; not all that easy to master.
just like the handling of relationships - CONTROL is the key.
Just like flying a kite, you should learn to control the tauting and releasing of "strings" in a relationship.
If the string is too loose,
the kite might not fly well enough.
but if the string is overly taut,
just as I am feeling, right now,
the string might break,
and the kite might never return, once it has flown away...

okay. this is super emo.
I'm feeling muchmuch better now.
seriously, one should always reflect on him/herself, and make changes asap,
instead of being stuck in a stubborn mindset,
forever thinking that he/she is always RIGHT,
and then end up in regrets.
oh wells. like what my boyfriend always reminds me : " Patience, lim jia xin."
I do have that, you know.
hahs.
and I still have that bit of restraint in myself, you know.
I'll just wait patiently for the day freedom comes looking for me :))
TADA! end of those negativity!
SHOO NEGATIVITY!!
stay away from me!! *RAWRRRRR!!*

YAY!! ^^ school tml.
I'm totally happy about it :D
(I'm perhaps, the only soul around, who is THIS happy about school!
it's not just the freedom; but I enjoy studying rather than doing nothing at all.)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!:))

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!:))

my New Year isn't as exciting as most of you all.
or rather, on this NewYear, I wasn't in my best of moods.
but ah wells, I made it through with some chocolates.
Thank God for the existence of Chocolates! :))

Since the NewYear is here, I'm going to list down FIVE most important resolutions.
(if too many, I also won't be able to stick to them. Hehs)

LIMJIAXIN's NEWYEAR RESOLUTIONS!
1. To walk more closely with Him in everything I do.
2. To REALLY get on with a fixed and regular exercise regime.
3. To DEFINITELY study HARDER!
4. To spend more time with my family and friends no matter what.
5. To be a muchmuch BETTER and MORE understanding girlfriend to JEREMY LIMCHUANGHAI!